by Esther | Nov 29, 2017 | Adoption, Faith & Encouragement, Home Happenings
I have been breathing borrowed air.
I am no longer who I use to be.
I struggle daily to love like Jesus.
Daily I ask, why did we choose this?
The pain of losing, yet gaining, plays with my soul.
Moment by moment I feel the real struggle; die to self.
My heart has been invaded with the faces of children, who aren’t mine – who haven’t been claimed, by anyone.
We’re asked”why?” “Why would you do this?”
One minute, my heart bursts with exuberant joy.
The next, my heart breaks into millions of pieces, as tears invade my face.
It’s true, my heart has been, disassembled.
by Esther | Jul 31, 2017 | Adoption, Faith & Encouragement, Mothering
I actually blog more, than it appears on your screen. Sometimes I tuck my thoughts and words away for awhile, or just never publish them at all. You see, I’m never sure if I should share something publically or not. And in this case, it was written during a really challenging down time. A couple months of real, raw struggle and pain. I don’t want people to have pity on my struggles, yet I don’t want to hide them – because too often people only see the rosy side of things, and let me tell you — it’s not all sunshine and roses over here. Promise. 😉
by Esther | Apr 5, 2017 | glory-chasing; praise uplifting
•For eyesight. And the provision for new glasses. God provides.
•For clearer direction; and like mindedness. He breaks the chains of our hearts, to help us see areas that need more work in our lives.
•When our hearts remain heavy; we can rest assured – God knows and He is perfectly able. And if He doesn’t take this away; there is a perfectly good reason. I just need to grow and keep trusting.
by Esther | Feb 28, 2017 | glory-chasing; praise uplifting
I apologize in advance for how much this past months post involves food. There seems to be an unintentional pattern. I’m sure my thighs are paying for it. 😉
