I began writing this post at the beginning of the day and saving it as a draft to post at the end of day. Well the day came to an end, and I was able to finish the post in a different way than I had originally anticipated or expected. 🙂
Oh how we wished to have been able to be in China for our daughter’s birthday…our hearts ache to have her in our arms. But we are SO thankful this will be her LAST birthday without a family. And this very thing brings us much joy! We cannot wait to make memories with her. We have SO much life to catch up on. Happy 6th Birthday, sweetheart.
We are SO close to traveling. So close, that we’re pricing plane tickets folks! We are currently just a few thousand away from being fully funded. We’re blown away how the Lord uses people to accomplish his purpose and plan. He asks for our willingness, “His plans far exceed what we could ever imagine or dream.”
I can’t help but feel so small, and so completely unworthy of what he asks us to do sometimes in life. “Us Lord? Are you sure? Isn’t there another couple more capable, more worthy of such? People who could do a far better job than us? We feel so inadequate Lord.” But then I remember, he works with the lowly, and the outcasts. He only asks for our willingness, our complete trust in Him. He’ll take care of ALL the details. And he has. Every single one. So humbled at the thought.
Despite our on and off distrust throughout this adoption journey. He continues to show us, in His time – this adoption is certainly HIS PLAN, and we must wait a little longer, as he continues to work out every tiny detail for our good.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
I don’t want to fluff up adoption in any way – it’s one of the hardest things my husband and I have ever done. But it’s also been one with great rewards. Even the struggles have been blessings in disguise. They have grown us, and continue to do so. They’ve given us a stronger desire to be even more willing to serve the Lord, despite the struggle, the pain, and the tears. We’ve experienced nothing but blessing after blessing when we are completely obedient to him.
So the months have gone by – and I just haven’t found the extra time to be able to record this adoption journey as much as I did with our last. Probably due to more doctor appointments and physical therapy? Or trying to finish up our 2015-2016 school year, along with church ministries and just plain crazy life.
My heart has fallen in love with our new daughter – we have yet to meet in person. But we’ve had the most amazing opportunities to be able to video chat with our girl several times, along with fairly frequent pictures. Something we never had with our 1st adoption. As much of a blessing this is, I also believe it has made things a little harder on our girl. She just doesn’t understand we’re coming as quick as we can!
Lord, help her understand.
Today has been a difficult day for my Momma heart. I dislike missing yet another birthday. It’s like time is slipping between my fingers, and I haven’t yet had a chance to even hold my sweet girl. It’s just not right! But this evening made a drastic turn from sorrow to joy almost instantly. I felt ashamed to question God, or even feel I had a need to complain. But He is so gracious, and loves us despite our failings.
This was a GREAT way to end our Adie girl’s 6th Birthday, the other day. 🙂 Watch our video here.